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Soundtracks of our lives

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Music has a incredible ability to speak directly to our emotions and to give expression to our deepest feelings. At various times in my life I have been drawn to very different songs which seem to reflect what is going on inside. Playing them, singing them has brought me comfort and even joy.

In Darkfever, (the first book in a dark and gritty urban fantasy series by Karen Marie Moning), the heroine, MacKayla Lane, changes from a superficial young woman who loves pink, accessorising, and bright, perky music into a grungy streetfighter with an iTunes list to match. I found her transformation fascinating, as I was, at the time, trying to achieve the reverse in my own experience of life: from pessimism, struggle and sadness to hope, optimism and brightness.

My own iTunes library included songs that could be described as depressing, but which spoke to me on a deep level, expressing in beautiful words and sound the deep and painful emotions of that time.

Here’s a sample:

Bring Me to Life by Evanescence

Rodrigo’s Guitar Concerto de Aranjeuz

Voodoo by Godsmack

The Promise by Michael Nyman

Time to Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman

Like an Angel Passing Through My Room by Sissel

Winter Song by Ronan Keating

I tried to find more upbeat songs to balance them, but I love poetic and meaningful lyrics as well as beautiful music. And so many perky songs just seemed trite and repetitious.

Time passed and my inner world lightened. Now I have found some upbeat songs that I enjoy. For example:

If I Had Words by Dana Winner

Shine Your Way by Owl City and Yuna

This Kiss by Faith Hill

Firework by Katy Perry

Brave by Sara Bareilles

I Hope You Dance by Ronan Keating

My current favourites are a mixed bag:

All That You Are by The Goo Goo Dolls

A Thousand Years by Glee Cast

You Are The One by Filippa Giordano

More optimistic, but still with some drama and angst. I’m a Scorpio, after all…

Driving in my car, alone on a country road, I turn up the volume and sing along with Filippa: “ You are my one, my moon and sun….”  I sing as loudly and as fully as I can. A love song to myself. And even though my singing is off-key and wobbles with the bumpy road, I feel elated. I laugh. Then my eyes fill with tears as I sing my heart out. For the first time in my life, I am giving myself permission to be REALLY loud, to be dramatic, to express my feelings powerfully through sound. In that moment I am singing the soundtrack of my own movie. And it feels great!


What is the soundtrack to your life? Does it reflect your inner world? Or what are you wanting to move towards? If you’d like to, use the Comments below to share the songs that resonate with you.


2 Responses

  1. Jo

    I love the idea of the soundtrack of our lives! Like you say, the songs we love at any particular time really reflect what’s happening for us. My current favourites are Blackbird (the version sung by Boyce Avenue), Brave by Sarah Bareilles, and Living in the moment by Jason Mraz. And I’m also loving the video of Louis Armstrong and Danny Kaye singing “When the Saints go marching in” – just because they are having such a blast! Now I’m going to go and check out your play list – I might find some new favourites:)

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