Music has a incredible ability to speak directly to our emotions and to give expression to our deepest feelings. At various times in my life I have been drawn to very different songs which seem to reflect what is going on inside. Playing them, singing them has brought me comfort and even joy.
In Darkfever, (the first book in a dark and gritty urban fantasy series by Karen Marie Moning), the heroine, MacKayla Lane, changes from a superficial young woman who loves pink, accessorising, and bright, perky music into a grungy streetfighter with an iTunes list to match. I found her transformation fascinating, as I was, at the time, trying to achieve the reverse in my own experience of life: from pessimism, struggle and sadness to hope, optimism and brightness.
My own iTunes library included songs that could be described as depressing, but which spoke to me on a deep level, expressing in beautiful words and sound the deep and painful emotions of that time.
Here’s a sample:
Bring Me to Life by Evanescence Rodrigo’s Guitar Concerto de Aranjeuz Voodoo by Godsmack The Promise by Michael Nyman Time to Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman Like an Angel Passing Through My Room by Sissel Winter Song by Ronan Keating
I tried to find more upbeat songs to balance them, but I love poetic and meaningful lyrics as well as beautiful music. And so many perky songs just seemed trite and repetitious.
Time passed and my inner world lightened. Now I have found some upbeat songs that I enjoy. For example:
If I Had Words by Dana Winner Shine Your Way by Owl City and Yuna This Kiss by Faith Hill Firework by Katy Perry Brave by Sara Bareilles I Hope You Dance by Ronan Keating
My current favourites are a mixed bag:
All That You Are by The Goo Goo Dolls A Thousand Years by Glee Cast You Are The One by Filippa Giordano
More optimistic, but still with some drama and angst. I’m a Scorpio, after all…
Driving in my car, alone on a country road, I turn up the volume and sing along with Filippa: “ You are my one, my moon and sun….” I sing as loudly and as fully as I can. A love song to myself. And even though my singing is off-key and wobbles with the bumpy road, I feel elated. I laugh. Then my eyes fill with tears as I sing my heart out. For the first time in my life, I am giving myself permission to be REALLY loud, to be dramatic, to express my feelings powerfully through sound. In that moment I am singing the soundtrack of my own movie. And it feels great!
What is the soundtrack to your life? Does it reflect your inner world? Or what are you wanting to move towards? If you’d like to, use the Comments below to share the songs that resonate with you.